About A Boy… A Cowboy

Relationships are hard!

It is only in recent times that I’ve been open to love. Of course, like every little girl growing up, I’ve always been in love with the idea of being in love, but have never actually opened myself up to it.

This post has been a few months coming… though I’m not quite sure what took me so long to write it. Maybe I felt as if, if I said it out loud or revealed it to the public forum that is the world-wide web, I would somehow jinx it…

I’m in love… with a cowboy.

About fifteen years ago or so, this fellow moseyed into my life. But at the time I had no clue that those childhood moments of roaming the streets of Hope Pastures and swimming in a water tank, would somehow bring me to this point. Who would have thought that the exchange of letters, back and forth would ignite in two people a connection that led them to be reunited over a decade after they had lost touch? From snail mail to Facebook, I can no longer deny what began so many years ago, puppy-love between two adolescents, has now reared its head as the perfect match of two grown, mature adults.

I smile every time I think about him… the dimple in his left cheek… the way he grabs my face to kiss it, as if he missed me terribly, and didn’t do the very same act only moments before… the way he steals a quick stroke of my leg while he’s driving, right before he changes the gear.

And me? I catch myself watching him while he sleeps… wondering what it would be like to kiss him, though I already know… trying to figure out what else I could possibly do to make him happy, because I want him to be happy – and he assures me, he is.

He is supportive and honest; nurturing and protective; gentle, yet firm; a planner, a thinker, a go-getter, and I admire him immensely.

It’s the first time I’ve truly been content, smiling to myself because I know what a ‘catch’ I have, and can clearly see the blissful future that awaits us, though be it far down the line…  and he too appreciates that I am quite a ‘catch’ as well, and am everything that he wants a woman… his woman to be.

So why then do women (like me) try to do things to jeopardise their happiness?

It’s as if I do or say terrible things as a means of ‘pinching myself’ to see if it’s true. Well, let me tell you, I got a helluva reality check last night and this morning, and there shall be no more pinching!!!

Even with my fight-picking, he forgives. He doesn’t easily reconcile, but he’s not afraid to call me on my BS or to “hurt my feelings”, after all, he has feelings too.

I’m definitely learning an important lesson on what it is to share, be thoughtful, giving, respectful and caring about someone other than yourself… because it’s crystal clear to me at this moment, that I am not in this [relationship] alone.

And for the first time I don’t get what I want, and it’s okay… but I will get what I truly deserve – a good man.


Day 7 – *grin*

I asked Cowboy what makes me awesome… his reply of course, was “everything”.

*rolls eyes*

So I told him, to choose one thing.

This time he was quick to say, “your smile”.

It’s funny. I was actually hesitating to write about my smile, since so many people think that I have a pretty mean-looking face. Plus, I do believe I’ve already written a blog post about it. Oh well…

As someone who  takes photos almost every day, I’m a firm believer that smiles make EVERY photo GREAT! If it’s a real smile, then that’s even better! And I know many of my ‘subjects’ after urging them to bare those teeth, will agree.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t blessed with perfect teeth – they’re neither straight, nor pearly white. But I have been blessed with an awesome smile (that looks straight from a distance! Hehehehehe). But when I do smile, you can be assured that it’s genuine. And often, my smile in turn makes others around me smile too; it makes them happy and look forward to seeing me again… for whatever reason.

So I guess Cowboy is right. My smile really does make me awesome. And perhaps I should thank him, since he keeps me smiling every day 😀






Let’s Catch Up!

So it’s been a while… sorry 😦

It’s really not my fault though! I tried sending a few posts from my Blackberry and they’re not going through 😦

I think I may need to update WordPress on my phone, but who knows how to  do that??? *sigh* I’ll figure it out on the weekend.

Well, let me just give you an update on what I’ve been up to… WORK – full stop. LOL! It’s true though… sometimes I wonder how I do it….trust me, it’s not easy working from 10am to 10pm on an average work day… and that doesn’t include when I work on weekends out of town, or have special events to cover… and to make things worse, tis’ the season of yule…aka the season of no rest/sleep/personal time for me.

Honestly, I’m tired (though I hear I’m not supposed to tell anyone that).

What do I do for a living?? hahahahaha I don’t think I should say, it may affect whether or not I have a job tomorrow, but if you spot me on the street, I’d gladly tell you.

Thanks for listening to my mini rant.

The real update – the cowboy is back on his ranch; Lizzy’s invitations are in the mail; we now need new bridesmaid dresses; my cousin Wendy from T-dot is in town; CG was here for Lisa’s wedding and we’re planning once again to get our business off the ground; Crackers is coming to town; I now have a boyfriend (hehehehe – blog post on THAT coming soon :D), and I may be making a move to the US. *whew*

That was also perhaps the list of the next few posts to come on my blog, so look out for ’em…

OH! And the Jamaica Blog Awards is now taking nominations! But I’ll post more info on that soon… in the meantime, you can go nominate me for Best Personal Blog, Top Blog Post, and Reader’s Choice Award…

Click here ——> http://jamaicablogawards.com/

Also, check out my blog roll… you can nominate some of my friends too!

Until later….



Revisiting Day 9

If you’ve been following my blog, you’d know that I recently wrapped up a 30 Day blogging challenge.
On Day 9 I was asked about love…and what my definition of love was/is…
(Go back and look)
Well, last week I received a gift…from a special friend of mine, who for the past couple of months has indulged in long late-night convos, thoughtful text messages, and most recently paid a visit to Jamaica to see me.
He made me smile not only on the outside, but on the inside too…I think I may have blushed!
Now I’m not saying it IS love…not saying it’s NOT love either…but it was one of the most thoughtful things anyone’s ever given to me (is thoughtful the word I want to use? Or is it more romantic? Hmmmm…)
Readers, let me know what you think about my gift…

P.S. I’m still smiling… 🙂

(Thank you Cowboy 😉 )

Hellooooo there!!!

Bet y’all thought I was gonna give the blogging a break, huh?
Yea, I thought so too…
But this post is necessary…
I just wanna say thank you to all of you who read my posts for the blogging challenge…I know a lot of you didn’t comment, but you all personally told me in some way or another that you enjoyed them…and for that I’m happy.
Big up Aurie, Cucumberjuice, Gayletrini, Kat, Slim, Jcankash, Mamachel, Naomi, KP…and anyone else who I may have forgotten who took the time to entertain me, and be entertained by me…
I’ve got lots more in store for you!! More food, a story about a cowboy and updates on Bridezilla!!!
Have a great night y’all!!!

Still living & loving…

Criss 🙂